Meeting Jesus in the subway
As I’ve been training and teaching people to give words, I keep getting the same message: “God was about to birth something in me – very significant. What we had been experiencing, which we thought couldn’t get any better, was just a start. The Lord would increase the influence of what we do.”
On subway, my head fell down, and I saw Jesus laid his hands on me. He showed me the ‘egg’ we’ve been impregnated. It had camouflaged shell. I saw Him break it. Then I got up from the vision.
“Lord, whatever this ministry is, if it’ll take away my first love, remove it now. I want to always love You. If any assignment, Lord, let me raise up an army who really loves You.”
Falling on the floor
Next day, after Heidi Baker’s night conference, I was walking with another Taiwanese girl – then my friend came. He laid his hand on us and we both fell. She started laughing and while I was calm. I enjoyed the peace – then realized I had no strength.
Guys in our group came rescue me. Our leader told me to get up, but I couldn’t. They had to drag me through the street on the bus, then into the luggage bin.
I started travailing. I rolled around groaning. I had no reason to be in pain but couldn’t control myself. My teammate Russell asked, “Jean, what happened?” In spirit, I saw myself in surgery: My gut was cut open and about 4 and 5 angels were replacing my organs.
Then in shaking and trembling, I start speaking, “Whatever happened to Heidi Baker, it’s now happening to you. Jean, because you love Me, you have sought nothing else but loving Me. Therefore I granted you her torch. Remember, there is a price to pay for the torch – the crosses and the nails.” I saw myself lying on the cross with nails drilling in.
“Jean, I have chosen you. I have heard your prayer. I have noticed your tears in the dark. My beloved – I granted your request. You shall go rise up an army, who really love me. You would not lose your first love.”
Commission from the Throne
We arrived the hotel and I was finally laid down on my bed. My body started shaking again. My hands were swinging, then my legs. My roommates were praying for me: Removed and healed all the wounds, and bless whatever mission God had for me.
I saw Him on the great throne, with rainbow behind. I was now uncontrollable. He spoke through me, “Jean, You were giving birth. I am pleased with your love, which I couldn’t find among tens of thousands. You are worthy to take My end time mission! You are worthy to be the mother of many nations! Behold, go ignite their first love – for this is a must for My End Time Church.”
My body calmed down. I still couldn’t move. Then my fingers start moving uncontrollably. I felt something is empowering my hands to play instrument. It lasted about 40+ minutes and I finally restored my strength. I found out later that I can play harp in spirit and sang out Heaven melody to match any song.
Heaven Worship
Next morning, in conference before worshipping, I thanked the person who laid hands on me. Jokingly, he did again. I felt down. Finally I asked to be put to the side, facing walls.
Worship began. I couldn’t move or dance, so I closed my eyes to love God in spirit. “I love You, Father. I am so happy, because I can always love You.”
Suddenly, I found myself in a different place. I saw a huge stadium with layers and layers of people. It’s like a sport stadium on earth, which typically has about 3 to 4 levels of seats. Here however, had hundreds of layers. At least that’s as far as I can see.
I saw roles and roles of people in white gown and gold belt decoration. They are all singing and watching the center stage. There were no empty seats. My spirit sense was enhanced. They were playing exact same music in the conference on earth – except in more splendor and magnificence.
The center stage was round, with steps around. I saw dancers swinging the silk belt in the air dancing. They were dancing with joy and unity. Everyone was rejoicing and participating the worship.
Crown of Worship
Then I saw Jesus next to me. He smiled, “Remember our wedding? We haven’t danced yet.” We landed on the center stage. I was in awe. Then He took my both hands, and jumped like kindergarteners. I laughed so hard, because it was so non-professional for this occasion. We laughed – just keep dancing and jumping. “I like how you dance, Jean. I am excited to show you off in Heaven.”
Suddenly, my outfit changed. I was now fully dressed, dancing with silk belt in the air. I knew I was now chosen to be the worshipper ahead of the battle, like ones David sent. The spirit of David, Joshua, and Shulamite Woman came upon me. I danced some times like a king, some times like a warrior, and some times like a bride. The entire Heaven boiled and cheered. Everyone is rejoicing and shouting the goodness of our God. I felt so happy to be His bride.
I saw a golden crown, with multiple jewels. “I granted you the crown of worship. This is what My End Time Church needs.”
Father’s lab
Then I was in Father’s lab. I was a little baby wrapped in clothes. I looked into His eyes. I knew what this is about. My mom left when I was an infant. I had no memories of her, and thought it didn’t matter to me. But as Father looked into my eyes, I started to cry. He was healing and filling my wounds and sense of abandonment, with His love and tenderness. From my birth, His eyes of love had always been on me – He has and will never leave or forsake me. I love Him, because He first loved me.
Learn to ride horse
Jesus came on a white horse, with another on His side. I didn’t want to ride on my own. “Can I ride with you?” He took me on His back. I laid my head on His sounder, wrapping my arms around His body. I didn’t want to go anywhere. I was set for life!
Then He put me on this other horse. “You must learn how to ride your own horse. Fellow Me!” He took off riding. All I could do was setting my eyes on Him, the horse ran with wherever I set my eyes. Jesus led me into a path joining many people, who were also riding white horses. I sense this is the end time army toward a battle. These were the movement leaders for the end time.
Garden Picnic
Then we were at a garden together. I saw many yellow tulip flowers. (Yellow: glory of God). I wanted to pick up a bunch for Him. Before I did, He gave me a bundle. “Jean, you are prettier than all of these flowers.” I grinned.
We sat down for a picnic. He opened the picnic box. I laughed! It’s a steamed fish my parents wanted me to cook everyday! I swore to my family that I would NEVER eat that if I have a choice. We laughed so hard together!
I start eating the fish. The more I eat, the bigger fish it become. One by one, the fish become so big like a Titanic size. I then said, “I couldn’t eat this fish. It’s too big.” Then I saw the fish cut up into cake size. And these pieces of fish were ready to feed others. I saw them dispersed.
I knew this represent our ministry – as we make disciples and promoted them into leaders. Our ‘fish’ will grow bigger and bigger to feed the nations.
